The other day I had a heart to heart with a really good friend about life. She said something to me that really stuck with me. She told me that she doesn't know if she could deal with the things that have happened to me the past few months and be okay. She said that I seem fine and happy. The truth is I'm not fine. A lot of shitty things have happened within the last few years, but the only thing that gets me through it is knowing that I will be okay. At times I feel so alone and have no idea how I am going to get through the next day, let alone the next week, or month. Being young can suck at times but feeling alone makes it even worse. In the last two years I have lost my two best friends. The two people who I thought I could always count on. It's difficult to lose your best friends but losing them while so much change is happening such as graduating and your first year of college makes it worse. I guess the point of this is to say things are going to be okay. At times I question this but at the end of the day I know everything is going to be okay and that is the reason I'm able to put a smile on my face. I feel like me putting a smile on my face really helps and honestly a smile is one thing that can totally change my attitude. So smile, be happy, and know that everything will be okay (:
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